Watford midfielder Nathaniel Chalobah has admitted that the thought of being sent out on loan again by Chelsea left him "frustrated".
The 22-year-old came through the youth system at Stamford Bridge but has spent time on loan at six different clubs while on the Blues' books.
Chalobah subsequently joined the Hornets for a reported £5m fee on a five-year deal last month, having made 15 appearances for Chelsea, all of which were last season.
"I wanted to come out and play," Chalobah told BBC Sport.
"Being at Chelsea, I would have signed a new deal and gone out on loan again and got frustrated. That was the choice I had to make, but it was emotional leaving Chelsea.
"The conversation I had with the manager Antonio Conte was positive but it was a decision I had to make after being on loan six times."
Chelsea currently have 25 players on loan at clubs around England and Europe.
Germany
Switzerland
Hungary
Scotland
Spain
Italy
Croatia
Albania
England
Denmark
Slovenia
Serbia
Austria
France
Netherlands
Poland
Romania
Belgium
Slovakia
Ukraine
Portugal
Turkey
Georgia
Czech Republic